Hey guys, it's been a while (actually its been a little over a month oops). Got some updates and was able to find a chunk of time to sit down to do this.
It's been about 2 months since the tragic passing of my younger brother. I've finally gotten to the point where I don't cry everyday, a lot better since I cried for several hours everyday for the first month. It's getting a bit easier to deal with. I mean I still have the days where I'm pretty upset and can get really upset easily, but I'm getting there. There hasn't been a whole bunch of updates with the investigation, the detectives haven't really talked to my parents which is upsetting. I don't know how all of this works or how its done. There's still a lot of anger and confusion and in the end no matter the outcome, a family has been torn apart. But to hear the whispers of that what happened was intentional makes me see red. I know my brother wouldn't want me to be upset and worry about everything, and I'm trying really hard for him.
I'm really hoping to get back into the art groove soon. I have A LOT of sketches from late last year and some stuff I did a month ago laying about, also have a lot of ideas floating around in my head. I will be getting a computer finally in a few weeks that out performs the old laptop that I had. I'm hoping I can salvage the art programs on there, but I think the only one I'll have trouble with is photoshop which is what I use to edit colors on my drawings. So I might have to find something to replace it and I have no idea with what at this time. Any ideas would be great. Now that I'll have my own computer again, I hope to be on skype a lot more often. I hate having it on my phone. I also have discord and if anyone wishes to add me on there as well, let me know.
The past few weeks have been really good, news wise anyway. I got engaged on the 18th of last month and a lot of people are excited (especially since my boyfriend and I will have been dating for 8 years this june). I think what we decided on was to get married at the court house and in like a year or 2 actually have a ceremony since we both would like to have one, money is just a bit tight right now for many reasons (but good reasons). My boyfriend, a cousin of his, and myself are currently looking to get a house together. House in the area I live in are really cheap and don't need a whole lot of work done to them. I would also finally have my own room/office for art and that makes me soooo excited. I miss having my own work space that doesn't conflict with someone else's things. I will also be going out of the country for the first time next year for my birthday. My boyfriend and I will be going to Cancun for a week and I can't wait to see the ocean for the first time either. The last really good piece of news I got yesterday which I totally wasn't expecting. I'm still paying off my student loans. I had 3 and was able to pay one off completely last year and I'm close to paying off another one here in the next few months. I got a call from my dad yesterday and him and mom have offered to pay the rest of my student loans off. They both know that we're wanting to get our own place and everything and with what all happened with my brother I think made them see something different (not sure if I worded that the way I wanted too). I was $10,000 in debt when I started making payments and on my own, I was able to bring that down by half in the 3 years I've been making payments. They don't want me to be in debt so young and they want us to use the money for more important things. They even offered to help with the down payment/deposit when we find a place.
Life is starting to look up and I hope that things can stay good for long time after all of this.